Anyone who knows me knows what a social butterfly I've always been.
I think most everyone goes through a phase in their college years when social interaction can be held up by an alcohol crutch. Especially when you work in the food/bar industry like Justin and I both did for years. Those days are gone, gone, gone.
Back in those days it was sleep all day, work all evening, drink all night, repeat.
Those are the days that a lot of people refer to as "The Days".
But nowadays life isn't so easy peazy. I don't remember the last time I was out past dinner time and I can't think of any reason to be out anymore.
I started my social fluttering quite early with the help of my older sisters old license and college ID. Thanks T.
Although I am only 24, I really lived out my party years to a fulfilling maximum, and like most people should, I got out of the service industry and slipped out of the "scene" when no one was looking.
It is nice to think back on those nights, walking into a crowded bar, knowing most everyone there, and high fiving the ones I didn't.
Now you can find me, during the most glorious party hours, in my big cozy chair watching TV with a baby plugged up on my chest. Hmm.. I really do love it.
I love it so much that I have developed a bit of social anxiety from being out of the public for so long. I really only have conversations with a 4 month old baby, an old lady dog, and my husband who knows all too well that I am a weirdo.
I can't help that my social anxiety drives me to use any excuse I can find to avoid people on a day that isn't ...perfect...
Which is, you know, 6 out of 7 days of the week.
I have cancelled one too many plans in the past year.
BUT!
I am declaring my New Years resolution here and now.
I will be that social butterfly that I once was.
But I will be a social butterfly in a healthy, motherly, day time, kinda way.
I also need some more hobbies.
I need suggestions.
AND I am also free to hang out now, if you want to hang out.
I'm a new woman.
Atleast I'll try.
you are so sweet, Marissa. I find I can relate to just about every post your write. I hate saying "me too, me too!" to all your blogs, but the truth is, I think we're very similar women and very similar mommies. Let's hang, fellow mama. I need to break my social anxiety, too.
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